My life with GAD and without Lexapro.

For those of you whom might not know what GAD stands for, it is General Anxiety Disorder.

Ok, being without my med for like, what? 3 days now? Is really messing me up. I am not even worried about anything right now; At least not consciously. My muscles ache, I'm agitated, irritable and bitchy (poor husband, having to put up with my crap) and the rashes are driving me crazy!  Not to mention that I'm super blue right now and really aching for either a drink or a cigarette (or both!). But no, it's not going to happen! This shit is not going to get the best of me!

The whole thing is that dumb me only set an appointment with the shrink close to the end of the prescription and... anyways, I'm thinking about confronting that doc about his choice to put me on meds from the start instead of trying Cognitive behavioral therapy. Effing doctors!

It feels like I could have written Men at Work's "Overkill" song myself.

Overkill
Artist(Band): Men at Work

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know WE'LL be alright

Perhaps its just imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It's time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least there's pretty lights
And though there's little variation
It nullifies the night
From overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away
COME BACK ANOTHER DAY

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
THAT I know will be alright
It's just overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night, my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Oh, and here are some patterns because none of you out there is to blame for my shitty problems. Enjoy! ;-) If you need help or a translation for this project, let me know.

Bolsinha de Feltro (Felt Bag)